Hello Earth Returnees…it is getting closer to the anniversary of the death of my son, Trevor (this life) and I am more emotional and passionate than ever to get some Truth out. I am ready to reveal what we are under this Ego. The problem is are people ready to hear it? I say most are not. The brainwash from heart is complete. I hope to bring some back to their own senses but odds are I will be the one getting judged as off my rocker.
Let me share some insights about reincarnation for you if you are interested in one person’s story of awakening to the other side. 🙃
As you read along try to see I am speaking from Spirit, not Ego…which is often projected upon me.
When the Ego dies, the Soul Awakes. Ego is learned intelligence and it is often taken away in fables and stories of the emotional eternal heart. In my internal world I know the stories of Moses are based on delusion of a psychopath and have been taught in all of the generations ever since. God punishing women with her role, mostly. We bleed and have pain in childbirth as part of God’s wrath we have to live out, I was told by more than one Christian teacher.
God is not a man in the sky issuing commandments. Period. Get over Santa Claus and Easter Bunny Fairy Tales, and believe what makes sense to you. I am here to speak for women and right brain oriented men who must be allowed to live with the same respect as anyone else or risk humanity. We need both wings to fly.
If a story from the bible or text books do not make reasonable sense it is not true. We must not live by interpretations of the scriptures by people who call themselves Rabbi or Father. These are the wolves in Sheep’s clothing. Yes, there were and still are many Spirits of Truth and the wisdom is comforting. Some come from a good place to teach lessons. However, the stories are twisted to turn people ashamed or afraid. This is not freedom, this is emotionally slavery to false Gods and the governments continue to twist truth. God outside of self is giving up Free Will to believe in ones own senses.
I am telling you we are the creator and God we have been praying for help to…
This is MY True and Emotional Story. If you are triggered negatively I don’t blame you. So was I until I learned to believe in myself again. So I go with my thoughts uninhibited as much as my world goes against the grain of thought.
Spirit to Spirit each of us are back again. We are our ancestors. We’ve been here before, time and time again living in different situations but very similar dynamics with the same soul group.
The reveal coming out of American religious and political pressure cooker is on purpose and now the characters are ready to fight out the Truth one way or another. Everyone is expecting the new world order to be on their side, especially the ones who think they are chosen. The machine is creating genocide right now with that thought. They really do believe they are cleansing earth of sin. There is no sin. Just misery expressed because of the judge.
The extremists think they are chosen by this God of Moses. Whatever you want to attach yourself with be my guest I take no prisoners. Jesus came to debunk Moses so I have no idea what the religions are doing with so much legislation now no one can breath or be free. What if we live and support the ideals of Satan (Nazis)? Can you wrap your head around that?
I panicked for two years before coming out, went homeless and lost everything and everyone. It was meant to be I am sure.
I can be me now, after two years of PTSD in my sudden ‘knowing’ because I woke wide up from a sleepwalk of this life…to the emotional life of a woman named Mary who also happened to be the mother of a prophet named Jesus. I feel the Jesus story is twisted in favor of Constantine’s image and nothing to do with Christ Consciousness. I feel strongly I am connected to that story and carry on as if it is true.
Consciousness is waking to one’s soul and we can all know who we are inside with a little self belief. This was the original message of Jesus. He was aware and awake, but not anyone’s God. His message was about reincarnation my friends…and it was wiped out of the bible by Constantine 342 AD. Why? Forever Life gave the people hope and emotional sadists do not like that.
Not shown in history (yet) the Mother of Jesus and others were held in exile, tortured, raped and killed. I feel this so-called virgin Mary Constantine invented was my spirit. My spirit is defiled as was my father and son, who both came to teach lessons of the heart this life. Both became broken emotionally and lived without love or understanding. One served time in prison and died broke on skid row, Vancouver, BC, and one became an addict and died by choice.
My father and son had hearts of gold no one could see past the word of man. I believe the real holy spirit is the feminine spirit, destroyed in Ephesus at the times of Jesus. IN my sleepwalk I was visiting Turkey Asia, in 2005…I felt the lies around the story as if I was reliving a dream.
I did not believe in myself and said nothing until trauma forced me to wake 12 years later, after my visit to Ephesus and Patmos, where John the Apostle was held and wrote Revelations. I know today I was there for a reason, but I did not know who or what I was at the time.
When it came to me I knew the world would hate me for my Truth. I already lost everyone and everything again to be able to bring it forward. I survived suicide. I am meant to speak. I have nothing to lose. Prove me wrong I suggest, but don’t just argue and try to prove me a liar as all psychopaths do in projection.
The emotional impressions and feelings kept coming…
Soon after the first Mary awakening my heart remembered the feelings of the 1600s and I suddenly know everything about Mary, Queen of Scots, and she was the mother of King James who rewrote the bible with the same religious powers. Mary the Queen was raped and maligned by her accuser, again. I adored reading about royal families all of my life, and they say I was born with an English accent. I never quite knew the story of Mary, Queen of Scots, however…because it is packed with lies again in history.
In false testimony the religious powers and her corrupt wealthy family made sure her head was chopped off after serving 19 years in exile (prison). Again the Truth is hidden to protect psychopaths.
This life my emotional journey is no different, the players are the same, the feelings are the same. We all come back the same emotional way we were before. I believe we are supposed to be developing emotional intelligence within ourselves, not working for a debt economy and masters who hold all of the money.
I lived as a Queen and it means nothing for I just feel the same as the mother who lost her son to religious and political corruption, three times. I suspect Mary’s son King James was Jesus again, in new unconscious clothes. No awakening this time. None this time either.
There is some Truth in the King James version of the Sermon on the Mount. But it’s still all wrong and twisted for fear and shame, not love and freedom as the real message is.
The emotional lives of all are back. Time and time again we live through what we have always lived through.
This life of mine again is exactly the same emotionally. Childhood abuse, neglect, alienation of family, rising above and creating an amazing career and life experiences.
I named my son Trevor as an unwed teenager. I had him this life all by myself with no love from family or government or church. Every step of the way Trevor, my father and self were laying out emotional love tests. And everyone failed us.
After suffering 25 years as a labeled ADHD and non conformist my son chose to leave this world on June 28, 2003 in a very violent and dramatic way. He wanted to make a point about how unhappy life is on earth. The death was ruled an accident, but I can prove it was suicide for a point and long ago planned.
IN 2011 I wrote my memoir expressing my reality at home, emotionally. I was raised by a psychopath mother who emotionally destroyed my father, self, and son. The family encircle the psychopaths with protection and love. Still.
Emotionally, we are all back for a very important reason this time. I was still unconsciously sleeping when I wrote the first book but the facts are all true. Emotionally I was still supporting a covert (hidden) psychopath, my ex husband. I treated him as if he was far better than me and a reasonable human. I saw myself in his darkness and spent 25 years wanting to die. I lost myself completely when I got married at 25.
Humanity is Lost. Asleep. Not Feeling.
Are you curious about the life you may have lived through before?
How is your emotional intelligence? Do you believe in yourself? Can you watch violence? Can you feel? I urge anyone reading to begin getting back in touch with touchy feelings. Go back to your childhood to do this and remember your wants and desires and feelings. Understand where the belief systems got you hooked to a life you may not want to live. Ego is a life chosen, we all get our own unless enslaved.
When you can feel love, sorrow, and Joy for that little kid in you – the awakening is begun. The more folks who awake to the Spirit of Joy the sooner our lives will evolve into heaven.
Imaginations are hijacked to believe in one God and so humanity cannot survive since there are over 7 Billion Gods here. We are killing each other off. Who is the creator? You. Spirit to Spirit we are all the same wonderful talented and resourceful souls trying to express ourselves in the way we see fit. Let it happen. Let me live and I let you live, see if we can’t lift each other to the places we want to go.
I have evidence in my remarkable life to prove the puzzle picture. I don’t owe anyone a thing, however. None of us do. I share from my heart at great risk to my feelings that get bruised by the judgement of others. I’ll share as I get lifted and retreat with nasty judgement.
Instead of looking at me Feel you…and find yourself again. Why are you back this time? What is it emotionally you seek? Leave everyone alone and just go inside and guess who you are and what level you are at emotionally. Are you strong? Are you weak? Do you feel flawed or perfect the way it is? 🤩🤓🙃
Some come to teach lessons of the heart by being difficult and pushing buttons. My family are going to have a nightmare of an awakening when they realize they created the human suffering in my father, son and self with judgement and gaslighting.
My people are the cold hearted psychopaths they accused my father, son and self of being. Projection is the mirror. What you think of others emotionally is the beholder, one cannot possibly know since we live many lives under contract. Imagine, but don’t imagine about others.
I cannot be sure, but I think that all of our lives are in contract and will unfold the way it was always intended. I urge anyone to work through feelings of shame and fear and get that poison out of you for lift.
Carry no bitterness just the wonder and glory of emotional growth. This is our direct connection to Source of Light and Energy.
Sources say this will be the last life we have as we will have succeeded in killing off the humans and planet. Weapons of mass destruction are everywhere and the Gods want to take over the other Gods.
Other sources say the New World will then begin without religious or public order. Language will be telepathic and no corruption will be possible.
In short, no one is chosen, we get to chose any Ego life we want, and if anything goes wrong come back again with even more emotional intelligence from before. Learning from books and others we go unconscious from this past and learn to live for outside gods, law and order. It makes life hell on earth for everyone when we don’t live the way we see fit.
It’s important to come to the new world order with a healthy heart or you may not see it in front of you whiles walking with eyes cast down.
I feel, therefore I am.