How do I begin, my friends.
Dr. Brian Weiss was a founding contributor to the awakening of our infinite mortality. I chuckle at how long it took him, five years, to finally believe what he was witnessing was real in his first book, Many Lives, Many Masters.
It’s hard to take, and for me even harder for who I woke up to be and try and convince the masses. When you do wake to your past emotional connections and ties and soul…it’s a real heart breaker at first to know just how wrong we get life. The reality is just too much to bear.
So I understand why people avoid me, my posts, my stories, my inspirations from my guides. I certainly do understand the shock and lack of belief. We are not raised to believe in Spirit, least of all our own.
I am not what you imagine me to be, I am what I imagine me to be. This goes for everyone of course. We are born within a family (soul group) structure of sorts, no matter what it looks like. You can be adopted and it be because you want to be with your soul group but one of them couldn’t carry you. If you are meant to be with them you will be again. Everything is on time and on purpose. Please relax, let your Spirit be.
I don’t pretend to know everything, especially details, I can only see and feel the big picture at this point. It’s very unlifting, hard, heavy to carry my story because most people are living in the head of fantasies, or learned intelligence, to guide them. If anyone speaks out of line like I do all of the time they are dismissed.
Our minds are very vulnerable. Prone to believing anything given enough water. It’s easy to fool consciousness, but Spirit knows the Truth. Eventually the spirit emotionally reacts to lies and it doesn’t feel good. We have lobotomies, letting people get away with all sorts of terrible things with our minds and bodies. Drugs, and legislation.
What is Spirit? People wonder, because they don’t know. In my wakening I know now I never knew myself in life, not for 58 years. I was what people imagined to be, I was not myself.
We should not be unconscious…I will say that. Conscious is afraid of unconscious at this point. When I say unconscious it’s hand in hand with Spirit. My words are highly offensive to the ones living obediently under the rules of man. I understand, I did this life of a robot group think as well. I tried to stay in the lines and forced my son to do the same, until his death by suicide.
Recently it took two years of PTSD recovery to understand and so why or how can I expect anyone else to get me. They won’t, and I accept that because it’s hard for me to even talk about. Why do I bother? Because I came back for a reason. Like all of us.
I am tired, and I won’t keep fighting people to try and show them how upside down we are living. I turn 60 on September 11th, I hope the world blows by then so that I can relax. No, I am not negative, humanity’s reaction to Truth is.
This pressure cooker of life is not healthy, and people are no longer attached to their own senses. Dulled by chemical invasion of the senses. Without human senses to see, hear, and feel…one cannot survive. One has to be careful of what they eat, and vaccines. Please. This is how epidemics are spread.
They took us away from heart and made us think of heaven. Without heart we cannot feel. Without feelings we have a robotic civilization who are capable of destroying the planet. And themselves.
To pray outside is to forget the power, talent, and resources are inside. Unless one is connected to the most Joyful and loving side of self the memories are forgotten. Sleeping…just for a while, until death.
There are many layers of consciousness. Infinite. You can come back time and time again to the same emotional life but with a different story. I will never stop learning about history of my being. Where am I getting my education? Source. Inside.
I was a failure in school and they told me so. Mentally I could not focus on such upside down and useless to by purpose details. Over and over the subjects get taught the same, and the imagination of who I was was watered with ideas and projections from others as if my not doing grade 8 math is going to bite me all life long, like I am stupid and can’t have the life benefits of good education and careers. I lived that life as if it was true, emotionally and while my resume looks very good, it was never complete to what I could have been had I been given the same opportunities as man.
When down it is dark and the light cannot be found. Keep the spirit happy and Joyful, no matter what the rules. We are all here to play out an ego experience, the emotional pain does not have to continue to destroy each life with misery. If you are miserable. Most people are not but they are certainly creating it for the others.
I came to bring light to the mega corruption in our Thinking. Religious upbringing and political government nightmares repeating history to the point of no return.
I remember picking this life after an induction with Dr. Weiss. I saw myself as my mother’s mother, and flashed was a blue Alien in the dream induced by Dr. Brian Weiss. When I witnessed my maternal grandmother (who died when I was 9 months old) and great-grandfather Thomas in a scene in my dream, a voice asked me, who will bear the brunt of her anger? After layers of understanding I know it means I am my mother’s mother as well as other ancestors. I was the recipient of my mother’s rage to the death of her mother, and as her daughter. I am an emotional witness to both abuses by my mother, and what she did to my father’s name and life.
Dr. Weiss was not there when I had the dream and so it was not a hypnotic trick of the mind. It came to me in Spirit. Emotional lives are remembered when conscious. The intelligence is very positive. Right now it’s not working out in Truth and so the shift is coming faster. Consciousness is diseased and the only way to save oneself is to remember who they are. No one can do this for you.
Brainwashing intelligence is in the wrong hands and not the good people who more often than not actually support the psychopaths more than the victims. Media and public education are the culprits of free will being hijacked. People repeat brainwashing time and time again, to the same people…as if it was true even if they don’t know. Suicide is the risk.
Our advanced killing technology and indoctrination for wars (for freedom🙃) is so capable now with intelligence we can be wiped off the map of earth. Humanity.
Here is my history I remember before I was my mother’s mother…
I am reborn from the lives of the man, Jesus, and King James. I was the soul of their Mother and lived the same Ego lives.
I was Mary Queen of Scots living the same emotional roles with different Ego experiences but same soul group. The theme is the same in all three lives. I was even born with an English accent of sorts. There are many dots to my interests and ways and manners that makes me smile with Joy in knowing why now. Even phobias of rotten food, which Queen Mary was fed in her final years. No one knows this, it is not in the books. She never killed her husband, and she was raped by her accuser. The religious right had their way until even her own cousin was convinced she should die. Same same this life only we are not living as kings and queens this time and the outcome is more passive aggressive. Emotionally, we are the same.
I know the dots of my life and experiences that make me aware this is real, but how can anyone else when the fantasy is waiting for a virgin to show up and save them?
So I have come to realize I will never be what people expect and to stop trying. They will think I am living in Ego and not understand this is my spirit’s desires. The history books have trained the mind well to ignore the Truth for the sake of memory and fantasy. This veers us away from the path and takes many lifetimes to realize the dreams.
At the risk of offending folks I’ve lost too much and I won’t allow anyone to malign who and what I am again. I offer anyone to challenge me and my history. I am taking my power back by speaking the Truth as I know it. I’ll be proven right. Some people are ready to hear the Good news (Truth) and I am excited to tell. Many are conscious already, are you ready to come to terms with who you really are? Are you afraid? Do you think your energy is for nothing?
I’d like to share the real Jesus but first we debunk the fables of Moses so indoctrinated. Jesus tried so long ago and spoke of his inspirations of consciousness. It’s what got him killed. This question why I chose this life? Well, this time once and for all I am here to repair the reputations of the ideals of my Father and Son…and to free willing slaves of debt, the financial economy ideals of Satan. First, old ideas all have to go. We need a clean slate as if we know nothing except by how we feel.
I love to share with Joy because that is where this is heading. If you are Triggered negatively by my emotional history or insights, please know you have been Touched by the Truth and it is time to pay attention to your emotional intelligence. I wish and hope for your love and support, unconditionally as I give others. WE make mistakes, but I am not a mistake. It took everything I”ve been through to get here and I won’t let myself down again. I believe in me to show you I want you to believe in you. The same way Jesus taught before the masses killed him, and maligned his name and character to serve outside Idol Lords.
It’s time to reveal the Truth. Anyone is welcome to prove me wrong but if it comes from learned text it will be an uphill battle when Truth is the Light we all really need and want. There is no forgiveness, you did nothing wrong.